I miss my grandma!

Grandma Wilder passed away just over a month ago and I miss her, alot! A-L-O-T!!!!

I find myself crying at random times for really no reason. I will just have a thought or an emotion over come me that reminds me of her and I loose it. I never new how it was going to be when she was really gone and now I know. It sucks. I miss just being able to pick up the phone and call her. I miss her voice, her reassurance and her positivity. Her miss calming words because she always knew what to say. I miss that my kids won't be raised with her and I miss sucking her face off. I miss my grandma more than words can express! I just loved her so freaking much. I know she is happy now but I worry about my grandpa. He is so strong but he is alone now. I want to pick him up and move him here. I want to just jump in the car and be with him all the time. I love listening to his stories and sucking off his face to. They raised me, believed in me and loved me unconditionally. I love my grandparents sooooooooo much! They are the best people ever. E-V-E-R!!!!