So I had my annual cardiology check up yesterday. I don't know why I do this to myself every year, but I go into the appt thinking that this may be the year I get off my meds. Wishful thinking I guess. I typically have an echo cardiogram a few days prior to the appt along with an EKG the day of the appt. The last 3 echos have shown minimal improvement and last years even resulted in a minor decrease in function. This year my doctor opted to not have me do the echo because he said that since I still have extra beats all the time (PVC's) which showed up on the EKG, that it's very hard to read the echo since the extra beats tend to skew the results. Anyway, he felt that there would have been minimal to no change anyway, so we will resume the echo process next year and I will remain on my heart meds.
After I asked him the typical annual question, "so how long do you think I will remain a cardiac patient or have to stay on medicine?" his response was - just plan on it for life! FOR LIFE! What the mother? I'm 33 not 69!!! Whatev!!! In addition to reminding me that my heart works at a "just above normal function", he mentioned that I should be more thankful than what the alternative could have brought and how lucky I was to make it through the pregnancy at all. ughhh Yea I guess he's right! I mean who wants to die after just giving birth to two beautiful children right? I guess there is just an irritant involved with feeling like you HAVE to take these pills EVERYDAY the rest of YOUR LIFE. I realize that people do this for several other reasons, diabetes, cholesterol, arthritis, depression, etc. But they're not me! I'm happy, I'm healthy......Right?
My doctor had consulted with a new colleague who had just joined Kaiser after heading up the Cardiology Dept at the University of VA. He asked him in all his experience, when do you every take a patient off of meds who developed a weakened heart as a result of peripartum cardiomyopathy He said you don't. There are many studies done on patients who develop cardiomyopathy and he could be certain of many things relating to that diagnosis. The "peripartum" trumps that and leaves the answers unknown. Studies and trials can't be done on pregnant women with stupid hearts as these are not typically found until delivery, as mine was, so they have no history to pull from. Stupid dumb heart!
Ok well I am over my rant. I need to just shut up and be lucky for the things I have. I feel stupid complaining about this in light of what other friends and family have gone through with cancer, diabetes, etc. So I will shut up now. But I guess we all have the desire to just want to be healthy right? Thank goodness for medicine and for me having to beautiful babies AT ONCE!